I am Divinity

I love myself so much that when someone leaves my life I know I’m ok.   I know I have loved well.  I am a Godess, I am beautiful, and I gave you my best.  I know how to protect myself unequivicallly, instintively; because I value my life.  I know how to say “no”.  I am willing to betray you in order to be true to myself.  My heart is filled with peace and joy. I love my time alone.  I wake up excited for what the day brings.  I enjoy my studies, language, violin, spirituality, yoga. I eat simply and organically.  I invite friends into my home and cook for them. I travel, I love latin America and spend time there alone or with others.  Somday I will live there.  I do what I’ve onlyl dreamt of doing.  I reach out to make new friends with people whom I value and respect. I let these people into my life freely and without fear. I find comfort in the company of women.  I welcome in my sensuality, my sexuality, and the beauty of my age, wisdom, and life experience.  I walk with my head up, and my light shines. I don’t have to hide the things I’ve collected during my travels just because they remind me of you and of happy times. They are a part of my life experience. I’m not afraid to speak my mind even if it makes you angry.I know I have stayed in my integrity and I uphold myself with this certainty and knowledge. I let you live and let you make your choices.  I do not take it personally.  I look forward to new, healthy, beautiful love from another.  I love again.  I look back, not with shame or guilt; but with gratitude for my experiences, painful or not.  I love the people who have touched my life and thank them for the lessons.  I realize that other people have their character defects… Perhaps they are sick. I do not take it on as my own.  I know my anger. It does not scare me. I know how to express it well.   I love my family. I have healed past hurts and love them for who they are.   I can talk to them without experiencing trauma from the past. I have made amends to them and we are healed and united by our love for each other.  I surrender my path. I know God protects me.  I learn Sanskrit and feel the power of the words. I feel them.  I feel the power of the words in the bible and I know they mean me too, for I am not forsaken.   I know how to meditate, to sit still without having to do something, anything.  I bring good smells into my home.  My home reflects me. I have my own style and and express it well.  I do not question this.  I love rituals. I find joy in rituals… bubble baths, prayer, mediation.  I listen to music even if it reminds me of you. I love music and dance wildly in my living room.  I sing out loud…. in my car, at home, in the shower, even if I sing out of key.  I am active in my sobriety. I belong to a community, and I give back with my time. I am free of judgment and intolerance, but I am not a saint. I swear like a longshoreman sometimes, but I am eloquent and soft spoken.  I am free. I surrender daily.  I am all of  these things and I am joyous. It’s what grounds me.  I feel empathy.  I do not question myself except when I know I’m straying off my path.  I stay open, honest and willilng, always willing. I am acceptance.  I am a child of God, loved, redeemed and called by name.  I am not afraid.

Emotionalism vs Spirituality

Emotionalism: n 1 the tendency to to show emotion quickly and easily 2 display of emotion 3 and appeal to emotion esp. to sway an audience to some belief

Spiritualism n ….2  the philisophical doctrine that all reality is in essence spiritual; idealism

Damn!   I always get these confused!  Green onions you have no power over me!!!